To be or not to be. To succeed at the game of volleyball?
To earn a starting position in waterpolo?
To continue my third year in bowling?
To run for asb?
To take leadership?
To be a missionary in third world countries?
To study til 1 a.m?
To put God first?
To take chances?
To be committed?
Or, to throw it all away..
Like an overused papertowel, I see myself slowly becoming weaker and weaker. Not thinner, but definitely soggy and weak. I'm not Bounty or Scotties, reuseable and just as strong as before. I'm starting to rip and tear in some places, but what can I do? Paper is paper. Thin, weak, and fragile. I guess I can always recycle. But when? How? Where do I take my break? I'm wearing myself out 7 days a week. There's no such thing as breaks.
Like an overused papertowel, I need a day where I can dry myself out and go back to where I came from. You know, like a tree trunk or something. Something sturdy, something strong, something that's a constant. Something that is deeply rooted and nourished; you know, like God.
Like an overused papertowel, I'm needed in more than one place at the same time. I'm in a mindset where I can't be great in anything I do because I'm cut into a million different pieces. Okay, maybe just 10. I used to put church first, then family, school, sports, and then friends. Now it's sports, school, church, friends, then family.
Hello jock, goodbye God.
I'm wrong in every angle and every aspect.
I lied, I don't even have a set priority.
I'm all over the place.
Like an overused papertowel, I need to be thrown away.
